Guess Who’s Here!

Everywhere I turn today, I meet women on the edge of tears trying to square the circle, and men who are scoffing, uneasy and raging at the threat of exposure.

Look, every time I hear

“alleged sexual assault” in your

dismissive tone, a young child

deep inside me stirs,

each movement opening

shuttered memories.  You left her:

two weeks of torture

with a monster who stuck his tongue

deep into her mouth,

his fingers shaming her.

And on your return, he made sure

to tell stories of 

disobedience before you 

and your furious belt were

alone with her.

How could you, 

god, you were furious

that I dared to run away from him,

frozen and speechless,

for what eight-year-old has the

vocabulary to describe 

that violation?  And the next time

he came to stay with his triumphant

leer, you had no time or patience

with me, selfish child

trying to ruin

your fine trip with my panic-

stricken don’t go.

Listen, this week, she’s been waking 

me every night, released at last.

I believe her.  She finds 

I was raped

the missing words.  

He’ll kill me if I tell.

I sit with her terror

I’m better off dead

until dawn and then

weary, stumble into

your voice disdaining the present

woman on the screen

trying to ruin 

a man’s fine life

by testifying.

And hey, FYI,

that’s me in the spotlight

facing my dead-eyed heartless judges.

Where are you in this picture?

Just so you know

exactly who you belittle,

I am choosing to live

today, and I finally

have the ugly words

for what I had to learn in darkness.

 

Inspired by Alan’s Ark recycled Daily Prompts: Circle

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Victoria Stuart

I'm a poet, philosopher and inner seeker. A giver, lover and a healer who studies the heart.

4 thoughts on “Guess Who’s Here!”

  1. Sounds like a terrifying situation and oh so wrong. No one should ever have to go through such a thing as rape. What will it take to change that mentality? Don’t these men respect their mothers, sisters, wives, daughters?

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