A Real Nowhere

When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you. – Lao Tzu

If a second beckons, now
intrudes.  Cynical and faithless

for a decade, I attempted
to climb back on the track.

Today’s heart-centered look
focuses on anomalies

and outliers, the inexplicable
corners of this imperfectly

carved reality. Stunned by
the beauty of crop circles,

I graduate from the space
of all-knowing blindness.

It’s all mystery from here.
It’s all good.

When I plunged deeply
into the pool of self

triggered by traumas
unresolved by generations,

my fear was never death.
My despair was sheer

unexperienced nothing, the black
hole I avoided, panicked

because everyone else seemed
whole, complete deep inside

where I was nowhere
to be found. And so I shed

all the things that defined me.
You ask, what do you do?

All my pat answers trashed
in the past, I jest: watch

swallows drive red-winged black-
birds from a perch. Track an eagle’s

twice daily flyover, gasp as bass
leap into thin air.

Enter the spaciousness
of now where I am

not. You fret, but what will you
do 20 years from now?

A place? A time? I’ll never
reach stuck in now here.

Inspired by: Anomaly, Graduate, Cynical and Jest.

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Victoria Stuart

I'm a poet, philosopher and inner seeker. A giver, lover and a healer who studies the heart.

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