Pardon The Expression

The calm power derived from your daily practice can transform what seems to be a disaster into a blessing. ~ Hua-Ching Ni

She challenges me to be kind

and show compassion and damn

if that doesn’t piss me off.

A gift, of course, to unwrap

here by the lake.  I long to be

lauded for my pure loving path,

to always do what’s best

for all in the most gentle

and respectful way.  I dislike

intensely being shown a reflection

of my fear and anger, as if

the image will be frozen

and I will always be stuck

in this frightened, pitiless pose.

Possibilities arise now

when I embrace this ugly

version of me.  So essential

I grew her carefully in the dank

prison cell of a cruel childhood.

She is valid.  I belong

in all my multifaceted bitchiness.

There.  I stick out my tongue

and frown.  Take that!

 

Inspired by: Expression, Challenge

The State of Being Expected

Natural forces within us are the true healers of disease. ~ Hippocrates

The wound is the place where the Light enters you. ~ Rumi

 

While very young, I had such great

expectations for this elderhood.

I saw my silver

-haired self striding the predawn

beach, a black dog running ahead.

Meditating with the tides

powerful, wise, mystically eccentric.

People with problems, I knew,

sought my presence.  I would read

their cards, their dreams, the dregs of tea

left in their cups.  Their hearts.

And yet here

I sit today, holding space

for our national disgraces,

all the wicked things my history

books glossed over or downright lied.

I walk softly; I’ve reached the point where

I apologize to startled

herons and snakes. I respect the life

force in wooden decks.  The voices

of the downtrodden speak to me.

Listen.  There is no solution.

Searching for answers

leads us far from the present

where our being emerges.

Open the place

here, now,

where love is found

beyond all the knowing.

 

Inspired by Expectation, Eccentric, Moment